In the previous chapter: AUTHOR’S NOTES: Yup! That’s me once again:
cardcaptor_girl. So? Did you like the previous chapters? I hope you did.
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Cardcaptors.
None of the characters are mine. And I’m not making any money from writing 
this
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                                                            CHAPTER 8: 
“Broken
into pieces.”

  In the previous chapter:
“Eww! Meilin! Why did you do that? Are you crazy?” Actually I knew why she 
had
done that, but a little boy inside of me told me to yell at her. And I 
obeyed
him.

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Life is like a box of chocolates – you never know what you gonna get. 
Sometimes
life can be predictable, but just SOMETIMES. In any other ways, you can 
never
know what’s gonna happen to you next minute. And just when we think, we can
control our lives; it turns out that we can’t. We can’t do a God-damn thing 
in
this alternate world without making a mistake.
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   She was on the verge of breaking down. Not a single muscle in her body 
obeyed
her. The girl was still as a rock. Only a tiny quiet sobs were coming out of
her. No, it was not crying; it was something else, much worse than crying. I
never saw her like t hat. Never. She always seemed so strong, but now I 
could
see her breaking into little pieces. Like a glass. I broke her heart.

   I felt the pain when she bit her lower lip very hard, as I bit mine at 
the
same time. Meilin bit her lip, so it would prevent her from crying; I bit my
lip, so that would prevent me from screaming in sorrow.
  I already regretted the thing I’ve done and the words I’ve said a while 
ago.
But there was no turning back. I hurt her big time.
  I was going to say, that I’m sorry, but she interrupted me:
  “Li.......I...I am so sorry...” She was sorry? Why? I should be the one
apologizing. Her sobs became louder and louder, until she could hardly 
breathe.
And the next thing I knew was Meilin picking up her bag and storming out of 
the
cabinet. Fortunately our cabinet was already almost at the ground. Meilin 
still
had to jump a couple of meters down and she landed on her right arm. By the
expression on her face, I could see the it was a lot of pain. Oh no! She 
must
have broken her arm! But that didn’t stop her from running away. Her 
emotional
pain must have been worse than any other pain. I saw that in her eyes.
  Thank goodness that we were already getting to the ground when Meilin 
jumped
out. I felt that she would have jumped out of this cabinet even if we were 
one
hundred and fifty meters above the ground.
   I wanted to go after her; I wanted to tell her that I was sorry. I wanted 
to
take her to the hospital for God’s sake! But I didn’t move, I didn’t say
anything, I just was sitting there still. I was in shock. I never was kissed 
by
a girl before. I never have been kissed at all! In the lips! The sensation 
of
it! Its so... NEW! Unknown. And that’s why I reacted like this when she 
kissed
me. Because I was unprepared for such a thing. Come to think of it: can you 
be
prepared for a first kiss?
   I saw her arm right before she took off. It was bleeding badly. Meilin 
didn’t
even look at me. She just ran away very quickly, before anyone could catch 
up to
her.
  The middle aged woman was shocked too and tried to go after her, but it 
was
useless. Meilin already ran off.
  I think I would have gone for the second turn in the wonder wheel coaster, 
if
not for Sakura.
  “Li! What the hell happened???” Sakura and Madison got out of their 
cabinet. I
slowly got out myself.
  “Li!!! Do you hear me?!! What’s wrong with you?” I barely heard Sakura,
because I was caught in my own thoughts. How could I let this happen? How 
could
I? I am a real @$$!
  “...I have to go.” I said and turned away from Sakura. I was on my way to 
the
gate, when she bothered me again.
“Li! You can’t just walk out like that! Tell me what happened! Did Meilin 
fell
out of the cabinet? Did you make her do it? Why?!!” Sakura inquired once 
again.
Madison was silent.
“Sakura, it’s not the best time for this. I’ll tell you later. Now I have to 
go
and apologize to her.” I said while running away. Last thing I needed right 
now
is for Sakura to be judgmental.
“So YOU did this to her! WHAT did you do to her?!!!Li!!!” But I already ran
away.
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   Where am I going? What am I doing? I don’t know where I am anymore. I 
don’t
know who I am anymore. Wait, I know who I am! I am an @$$! That’s right, 
that’s
who I am!
   I feel guilty, and I don’t know what to do anymore. How do I fix things? 
I
should just shoot myself with the Shot Card. Well that can be arranged.
(Author’s Notes: as you already understood, there wasn’t any “Final 
Judgment”
yet. Li still has his cards. And Meilin never went to Hong Kong.)
   Hi! That’s where you came in. It is already five in the afternoon. What
should I do now? I can’t go home; not without Meilin...
   That’s it! I am gonna find her and apologize to her. Not that she would 
ever
forgive me. Wait! What am I going to say to her? That I’m sorry, and that it
will NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN? How pathetic am I? But I have to talk to her. I 
have to
see her. I NEED HER.
I NEED HER! I LOVE HER! I LOVE HER? OH MY GOD, I NEED TO TELL HER THAT I 
LOVE
HER!
I LOVE MEILIN RAE!
The realization of it hit me like a lightning. I love Meilin. How could I 
not
see it?
But I have to find her first, so that I could talk to her. To tell this girl
that...that... she is my everything.

TO BE CONTINUED....................

AUTHOR’S NOTES: YAY! YAY! YAY! I did the MeiLi thing! But no worry, the 
story
is not yet finished. When Li finds Meilin, he is on the big surprise! What 
will
she tell him? How will he react? The next chapter will ROCK YOUR WORLD! Wait 
for
it! You’ll love it.         PLEASE, PEOPLE! READ AND REVIEW. I NEED TO KNOW 
IF I
SUCK.

Sincerely, cardcaptor_girl